I seem to have entered a new phase in my therapy with my T after our little 'rupture'... We've had some frank and open discussions, some rather more direct questions and answers, and I think our therapeutic alliance is stronger than ever

I somehow managed to get all the maternal transference type stuff 'out there'... so now there is literally nothing I haven't told my T! (That I can think of, anyway!)

Had two sessions this week, during one of which we went for a walk for the first time. It was nice to be with T outside of our usual space, and I think it did help me be less anxious... she said she wanted me to try and be more 'in the moment', notice things around me.

I finally managed to ask for - and get - something I've wanted for quite a while but was determined I wouldn't ask for because I was afraid she'd say no... a hug!

I've left my copy of the Emotionally Absent Mother with T for her to look through, and she's given me a bit of homework based on it... I think this is going to be important stuff to work through, I'm glad I braved up and took it in...

Although my mood seems to be going through a bit of a dip lately and my anxiety seems to have increased, my therapy seems to be on the right track, and I left my session yesterday feeling good. I just wanted to share