I do this too but only when I am prepared so to speak. deliberately encountering a trigger for a person with DID can result in a disaster and often times become very dangerious in part because the person with DID does not know each and every repressed memory that can possibly get triggered into surfacing.

So being DID and have done alot of working with triggers with and without a therapist I have learned to and how to prepare ahead of time.

For example before a therapy professional and I do any trigger work we make sure that I have my emergency list of numbers posted by every phone so that once I have been exposed or used triggers on purpose all I need to do is go to the nearest phone and if at home read the posted number and dial, if out of the house go to the nearest phone, open my back pack to my emergency bag - A plastic waterproof baggie or plastic bag that has my Declairation for Mental health treatment (a legal form that I carry a copy of and my therapist and representative and family physician has a copy of which contains my mental and physical health information, contact information for my physician, therapist and representative. the representative is the person I designate as the person to make my mental and physical health decisions in the event that I am unable to do so, my treatment plans right down to allergies and my choosen treatment options. If at any point the hospital personel want to change my treatment plans as laid out in this form they must obtain my representatives permission or go to court.) anyway on that form is my therapist, physician and representatives (best friend) phone numbers, and also in the bag is change for pay phones. So when out of the home if I have a problem from exposing myself to a known trigger on purpose I have the means to safely call for help.

I also make sure that my therapist is in town and available and knows when I am working with triggers.

a therapist being out of town or unavailable is not the right time to shake up and force new memorys to surface or just plain trigger a DID (specifically me) with a known trigger.

I also make sure that I am freee from situations such as taking care of a friends children before I expose myself to a known trigger. If Im going to be resposible for a friends children thats not the time to upset myself on purpose by shaking things up using triggers.

I also make sure I have at the least one friend that if needed I can spend the night, weekend whatever. Just an added thing besides the declairation of mental health care that I have put in place so that I never again end up locked on some mental health unit somewhere restrained and drugged and other things I have gone through on nut wards.

One my support network is in place, emergency numbers posted and available and my therapist is aware and available then either I watch a tv show that will purposely shake things up, or use relaxation visualization techniques (otherwise known as hypnosis) to gain access to a specific piece of memory and so on.

I don't do this because I WANT to I do it because it happens to be what works for me in releasing pent up emotions and memories that happen to be sitting right there at the edge of awareness and it happens to be what works for getting me out of the quicksand of being stuck in one place where nothing new is happening go or bad. I hate being stuck not going up and not going down in the healing process. I know that if I am going down theres a reason and if Im going up theres always the reason that the problem has been resolved but the staying stuck in the same place I have no use for that. Kind of like if I have a cold it better be getting better or have a reason - its turning into bronchitis but to leave me stuck with blasted cough for 6 month, and on again off again sore throat - nope don't want it. develop or get worse I can do but leave me hanging I don't do.