It is hard to tell you for sure if you have BPD. Only a doctor can tell you for sure and sometimes it takes them a while to accurately diagnose you. You are not alone with your symptoms. I experience many of the same things on a daily basis. I have found that this web site helps tremendously. It is great because it lets me know that there are other people out there like me. So when you are feeling lonely, log in and read what other people are saying. It also helps to help others. Sharing your experiences and knowledge is great therapy for others as well as yourself.
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Originally Posted by homedad76
Hoping to get some insight. I am experiencing the following symptoms on a fairly regular basis:
1) Oversensitivity to criticism or sarcasm to the point of anger and lashing out
2) Inability to multitask or to focus on more then one thing (ie I had to quit a fast food job years ago because working drive through required the ability to take an order while filling a previous order and I could not do both) and frustration over it
3) I have trouble being assertive or even talking to people out of fear of rejection and judgment even in the most mundane circumstances (I won't even call to order a pizza because I am afraid of saying something stupid or them laughing at me after we hang up)
4) I have at times in my life thought I was destined for something great or born on a different planet or dimension
5) I become very attached to people who show me attention and desperately want to be super close immediately, the kind of relationships that normally take years to develop and when they don't I feel worse then when I started
6) Major sexual impulses primarily pornography and trying to get my wife to try new things. I have also tried putting myself in situations that could lead to indiscretions. I've never directly sought out sex with another person but if someone offered I would have trouble saying no.
7) impulsive spending but not big purchases but more a little bit all the time, usually food
8) I often get very gung ho about something and then when it is difficult or doesn't meet my expectations I stop even trying. My mind seems to think that if it is hard it must be wrong cause I feel like I am too smart for things to be difficult
9) On the flip side of 8 I sometimes feel like people are purposefully making things easier on me if things do go well to avoid upsetting me. Like I lack the ability to actually do anything well and the people who think I'm good or worthy have fallen for my con game (a past therapist called it an imposter syndrome)
10) I am very suspicious of the motives of others and feel like most people in the world are stupid or manipulative (or both)
This covers the main stuff if anyone needs more detail (not sure how thats possible) I'll be glad to share. I also just feel empty alot and with no purpose yet that I was meant for greater things. I find myself just sitting around unmotivated and I tend also to have the attitude that I get so frustrated if things don't go exactly how I want them to I give up so I often don't even start. It is what I call lazy perfectionism. Does all this sound like BPD or something else.
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