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My family is exhausting me. Cousin had wedding recently, quite show off event.
Anyways, won't go into details, but I realized once again how messed up and dysfunctional my family is. It seems that having a working relationship is impossible. So why try?
(my mom claims reason to start a family is because world is never gonna recover from economic crisis and there's so many wars, disasters and eastern bloc is rotten with mafia and corruption, so one needs their nest... I say why bring more people into such world).
Watching Al Jazeera and occasionaly Czech news (to catch up with what is up with the scene... so I can claim to hate it)... and it's hard to keep idealism... I need to be rewritting my thesis but at the point I don't know how to write conclusions without "DIAF you ****ing mother****ers".
I sorta hope Mayans were right. It would take care of lots of things, wouldn't it?
I don't think I am depressed though... I am just nihilist. I find it hard to find some aim in life, but then again... that's how 99% of Westies are, right?
I am going through pix of Ukraine to ensure myself humanity rocks, but all the pho-tos of war memorials make me grin cynicaly rather then make me sappy and idealist about history and humanity... and pretty places? I always suspected pretty places are a form of distraction.
Sorry for le rant... but if you know about open position of profesional nihilist, I am the best candidate. I seen a lot and cynically laughed at it all.
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