My ex-husband would abandon me and my new born baby for weeks at a time. That was a terrifying and excruciating time for me. So I do understand the loneliness you are feeling. Despite the hurt and pain, my son was an incredible source of comfort to me during those times, however - this became marred by my subsequent post partum depression.

Have you considered seeking help for post partum depression?

I am so sorry that you are feeling so lonely right now.