(((Ok))),

I can understand that 'cornered" feeling. You have to try to slow down and take it easy and understand that some of that "cornered feeling" is coming from the past, that is what I had to learn myself. My T kept asking about my childhood but I didn't want to go there right away, I didn't see how it connected, but it connected a lot.

For me, I found that when it came to child abuse, and I was CSA, I asked questions about it first and got to listen to my T talk about it and how it happens "alot" and how hard it is for his patients to talk about it. It was my way of saying "me too" and hinting that I was getting ready to share some of my experiences.

Oh, I understand it isn't easy, and I also understand the pain as well. I had to take Klonopin to help me calm down, I don't know what I would have done without it in those very difficult times when things were coming forward and were painful.

I don't know if you are on any medications but you may need something to help you while you are in this part of the struggle with PTSD. Always remember if you can, that it is always a wave, it comes in and receeds. But I do admit that some memories left me dazed and confused for quite a few days.

After you work through this part for a while one day you will say, "gee it feels like I just woke up somehow". That is how I felt.

(((Hugs and keep trying)))
We are always here to listen and help however we can to support you.

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