Yep, I still talk to my abuser (my mother). Every shrink I've ever had has urged me to cut all ties with her. It would make sense, and it would undoubtedly make me feel better, but there's that little voice saying, "SHE"S YOUR MOTHER!" (I was raised on guilt, can you tell? :-)

I know she will never admit to what she did, and I'll never have justice, at least in this world, and that makes me angry and a little self-pitying. I do try to limit the amount of contact I have with her, but I don't feel capable of cutting it off entirely. ..which makes me feel more nuts than I already am! Suggestions welcome.