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Originally Posted by shezbut
My point is that you aren't completely stuck in this horrible place you find yourself in right now. Life might not be what we dreamed that it would become (once upon a time) ~ some of us struggle more than others.  I don't know why. That's just the way that it is. Right now is a time in your life where you're testing what can/cannot be done. What are your abilities? I know that my abilities are a lot lower when my PTSD is triggered.
Hope that this makes some sense to you & brings a little bit of hope. Hope in that your future isn't simply a life of doom and gloom. It CAN get better. Just try not to give in to dark fantasies, making them occur more often. Talk with someone that you can trust about how you're feeling. The intense loneliness can feel completely overwhelming at times. Try to fill that blank spot within you with something healthy. A healthy release of intense emotion. |
I'm sorry you went through all that... Yeah, in kindergartene I was suspended on the second day.. for creating anarchy.. Intense lonliness is a bit of an understatement... today the closest people I have to being friends told me that people like me should be hanged. I don't have any abilities either. My grades are terrible and I have to cheat just to pass some subjects. I can't play sports, can't engage in much conversation because i'm so stupid that my words never come out right, I'm not funny, and i'm not good with computers. can't draw, paint, play instruments.. I can hardly even read my own handwriting.. and i'm hated. my abilities in all subjects seem to be declining... Actually I guess I am best at piracy(finding illegal downloads...).blah... nothing can be done... I never actually succeeded at anything in my life. I don't even know why I am still alive... people ask me that all the time...