Thanks beauflow,

Sigh...I am still trying to do the paperwork so I can figure out what to put into the demand. I have been able to do some of it but it has been like pulling teeth. I find that when I work on it, I don't sleep well, and it opens up to a lot of anger, and sadness and lots of anxiety, so much so that I have had to take some Klonopin and I really don't want to take that anymore. I don't even want this to happen, it just does. I keep telling myself that if I just got it done I would have it done, but it doesn't seem to matter. At least I am touching it and looking at it, that is a big deal, something I could not even get near before. I have been working doing jobs even during the week and so I don't want to get myself to a point where I struggle to work. Yesterday I had to take 1/4 tablet of Klonopin because I had so much anxiety I was dizzy. And that is because I was working on it on Tuesday, could not sleep Tuesday night, and then Wednesday I had to get myself together to work. And I also get very depressed when I work on it too. And I cry alot, I am so tired of having to remember all of this.

Most of this my attorney already has, but he gets all confused with it. There are too many animals and he gets all mixed up (remember he is older too). And honestly, I feel he is not very organized, I have seen my file he has and well, it is huge and doesn't look organized.

I wanted to work on it today, but I could not get to it and when that happens I get very disappointed in myself.

I think if I had an attorney that was more supportive and positive it would not be so hard. He really triggers me and I have been working on the "whys" and it doesn't go good places.

IDK beauflow, I am trying.

Open Eyes