Well, I've come to the realization that through all my efforts with Andy it will never work out. I've started to write a letter to him to end things. I'm not pointing out anything he's done wrong or that's happened in our relationship. I simply wrote down (I am no good at verbalizing things so I write letters) that we want completely different things, have grown apart, and have different values/morals.

The truth is, something I would never let him know, that I am not bisexual. I've taken quiz after quiz, talked to people and counselors and they all say the same thing...I'm not bi...I'm a closet lesbian.

With how I feel about men, their bodies, never being able to connect, bond, or relate to them and never have my needs met by men it really does all fit.

I mean how many straight or bi women only get aroused by women, think the male body is the most disgusting thing on earth, cannot feel comfortable around any man no matter what, and only feel comfortable around women...and actually feel pleasure from women and not men??? I don't know any.