Ugh, I really dread the idea of being medicated. I'm looking to exhaust every single other option in favour of being on medication. For the most part? I have a great deal of control. Even in hypomania or to the depths of deep depression, I have full control of my behaviour. But it's just for those days or weeks of mania that my grip is no longer there. Oh & I won't be paying for anything... The sessions are free! Which is comforting because I probably won't qualify for government insurance, so it's nice to have something to tide me over until I can afford actual insurance. I found a few psychotherapists, specifically CBT, with experience but they are pricey for my budget. $50 & $70. I'd really like not to have to pay... But if this doesn't pan out, at least I have options. And both of them have working experience with all of my concerns.