((Dalila))

I am the eldest child of 6, 5 younger sisters, my mother was both a victim and an abuser, she married abuser, after abuser, 3 of them, and is now back with an ex.... I am so sorry for your pain and suffering and that you were forced to be the surrogate mom and not only had your childhood stolen by abuse, but that you did not have the support, guidance, and love that are the building blocks to an healhy adulthood. I hope you find comfort and seek support for what you are going thru with the nightmares and the trauma behind them, being betrayed by your mom..is a feeling I can relate too..the need to love the need to hate..push pull..can create such heart rendering pain and just a deep desire to ask "why"..I have a hard time creating relationships with either s*xes...right now 0 for 0..but my trust with women IRL is impossible..as I endured the abuse from the men in her life, while trying to be her parent and my sister's too..never understood how one moment you are a protector, the next an object to vent hate onto...back and forth..back and forth..crappy way to exist for anyone...especially a child..why all my T's are men...so online support is helping me grow and heal when I see others *especially women* struggling, supporting, and..surviving...

After being betrayed by a same s*x parent it is healing reaching out to them (women) in a safer virtual enviroment .. I dont know why but it is...kind regards Dalila..and hope for all the best as you try and cope with your nightmares and the hurt...