Thank you for your feedback I found it all helfpul. I have a lot of difficulties sleeping which means I have to have a regular sleep pattern if possible. Going out and having fun means breaking that sleep pattern. It means going to bed at 3a.m. rather than my usual 11p.m. for example and it's unrealstic for me to think I can do this at the snap of a finger without having trouble sleeping.

For the most part, I can tolerate my meds. The one that has the greatest impact on my social life is the seroquel. Thank goodness for it though because it helps me get a good night's sleep without causing me to wake up feeling drowsy but I must take it early and it does impair me from being mobile.

I don't think lowering the dose of any of the meds i'm on is a good idea but i do leave that up to my doctor. I'm stable but still hyper all the time. I have responded very well with the lamictal, lithium and seroquel. I think a part of me also misses the slightly manic Lia when I could go out all night and have fun without thinking twice about meds (even though i'de pay for it in every way). I am basically just venting and thanks all for listening. I guess i'm also trying to make a point that sometimes a mentally ill person has to make sacrifices and take responsibility to stay on track and keep themselves well. Thanks for listening.

~Lia
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