((Abscondist))

Not all are great fits for individuals -- I am sure many can say they went to a few before finding one that was a good fit-- others are great with finding that first fit--

I am so sorry that you had this experience with your T , i had a similar one which last February I quit due to felt pushed to do so-- needless to say, it does not help much when things like this happen

But it is ok--
It is ok to take breaks, it is ok to contemplate weather or not therapy is a right fit for you, it is ok to continue on your own with healing as best as you can-- but if you find that some things are still stumbling blocks, perhaps looking into another therapist is a good idea-- it is ok to continue reading, posting, getting support where you can

i know, there are so many factors with therapy, my insurance actually does not cover therapy even though by law for CO Mental Health is to be covered as Psychical health but my insurance the last two years has gotten 'graces' from the government for not even matching the physical part of benefits- that is why I went to the County therapist when i went and was accepted.... But I know there are also sliding scale therapists as well that may help... it may be a search, which can be tiring but I encourage it (for me to do as well).

I think one thing (there were several things for me actually but) that was over looked in my case was the County therapist I was seeing did not know much about one of my Dx's (PTSD) and for the Bipolar dx she wanted to push me off to some where else, worse yet after a while with some of my own reading I disagreed with the bipolar dx, but she was full forward that Bipolar was my problem... with her not knowing much on PTSD and not wanting to deal with the other, sessions were hard to say the lease with her... especially after a medication round that did not make me better.
With that being said-
Is there anyone else that you can see with the State office that you were going to? I know that was an option for me, that I could switch therapist in their office but I did not. (I did with pdocs though).

Many hugs to you And again sorry this had happened... a lot of state, county, help are over booked themselves-- meaning I do think they show a little lack of empathy to their patients due to they are worn out-- we can only expect so much from a human--- but at the same time, they are in a field that -- that empathy, caring, listening, is really needed for others to heal and get the help they need.....

I wish you well

Never give up on yourself - even if that trying is with out a professional