Hi Autotelica,
Thanks for your support. It's funny you mention about meds, because I'm just that way! I'm only on two meds, but my pdoc had to keep telling me they were ok in order for me to take them. I'm thinking about switching meds, because Zoloft obveously isn't doing it, at least not at this dose, but am scared of anything else because I've only ever been on zoloft and tenex both with like no side-effects at all at least for me.
Well I already e-mailed and left a mesage for the caseworker, saying no to applying for medicare and explaining why, and that in general I don't think I'm up for this program right now. I feel like I've been making decisions so impulsively lately I hope it's the right thing. Normally I'd have my t, (or two of them in the case of last year, VMT and school counseling intern) to talk things out with once or twice a week, and with e-mail contact if needed as well. And I'd also have friends from home. Well friends from home bailed on me, and I haven't had a t in months. It's hard to decide stuff all on your own.
Maybe I'll have a clearer perspective after a session with this new t next week. It's been so long since I've had someone's undivided and scincere attention on me and how I'm feeling. It has to do some good.