I just want to reiterate something that Gilly said before:

> I might as well get straight to the point and tell you that I am trying to deal with a problem that I know I need to stop but I just can't. I haven't told anybody about my problem because I am scared about what the future will hold and mean.

Sounds to me like she took a fairly huge risk in disclosing her worries about her behaviour to us...

I think I'd be a bit afraid if I thought I acted as a 'liar' and 'attention seeker' too. In fact... I used to see myself that way. I did. And clinician's judged me to be that way too. I didn't mean to be bad :-( But I felt like I was bad an awful lot :-( Thought that I was a fairly horrible human being. Thought that there was no way in the world that other people could accept me.

I asked in the other thread what you meant about the lying...

Sounds to me like... You really want to change your behaviour but you are having trouble. You know what... Sometimes even seeing / admitting that there is a problem can be a HUGE step. Maybe it is a huge step that you have taken.

A therapist could help you sweetie. A couple dx's spring to my mind but never mind those (they never helped me and I don't see them helping others unless they need the dx to get treatment). I think a t could help you to figure ways to better get your needs met.

I hope you stick around.