Thank you all for welcoming me and for your comments. I haven't been here since the day I joined. I have been very depressed and trying so hard to figure out what I am going to do. It's ruining my life. I hope that being here will bring me some peace knowing that I am not alone in this. Many people say you're not alone but do they really understand? All I am looking for is true friendship/love and support. My BF is an amazing guy and does alot for me. I just think our relationship is suffering because I rely on him too much.
I don't think anyone really understands when I tell them I'm scared. I want to tell everyone just how scared I am but I'm just as afraid of their reactions. All they can come up eith rather than comfort me (whether they understand or not). I'm not fully asking them to understand my feelings etc. but to just be there. That's it. I'm scared of life, what to do and where to start. I've waisted so much time I need to go back to make things better now. Yea obviously that's not possible. I'm scared to death and I can't even start to count how many times I have cried. You guys.....I cry so much and it's so sad. I'm starting to feel sorry for myself.

Well I have to go. Just wanted to say thanks really and hope you all are doing ok.
Takecare