Thank you for the replies.
I'm sorry for saying I have OCD, it's just that I once confessed my problems to an older, wiser person, and she said that my symptoms sound like OCD, even though I've always felt it's paranoia or anxiety.
I don't have medical insurance, and really can't afford to see a professional. But, it's getting to a point where I'll HAVE to make a plan soon, cause it's starting to make me not wanna get up in the mornings, I'm constantly plagued by thoughts that people don't like me and think I'm a back-stabber, liar or worse things... I just HATE it.
I've decided that I'll use my Christmas bonus this year, and instead of using it all to relieve some debt, I will be spending half on my debt and half on seeing someone who can help me, even if it's just 2 or 3 session. Reckon that will be enough?