Hey there. I hope I can be of some help to you.

I don't think it's very unusual for the idea of actually having sex to be somewhat uncomfortable, particularly if you've never had it before. Provided you're not uncomfortable enough for the idea to be totally foreign to you (which isn't per se a bad thing, it's just meaning it's not up your ally ), I would say you're okay there. As far as your thoughts and frequency of masturbation, it could very simply mean you have a high libido, which, again, is just fine. Even the things you mentioned such as wanting to once you get home and stopping movies to do so I think can be attributed to a high libido (and if we're being perfectly honest, sounds like myself at times ). I would tell you as long as it doesn't affect your day to day functions (ie "I was late/missed class today because _____"), you're just fine.

Fantasizing about celebrities is totally normal, but I do think it is curious you mentioned the Electra Complex and the age being a factor. I'm not a doctor, and I can only hazard guesses, but I'm wondering if some sort of subconscious desire for a strong father figure (you mentioned you weren't close with your own) is at play? Your emulation of your chosen celebrity and your admiration of certain constant traits is what signals that to me. I would love the input of another member there, but that's my closest guess. I might consider talking to a professional about that particular aspect.

Also, as far as the porn thing goes, don't worry much about that. Porn allows us to explore venues we wouldn't dare do IRL. Provided your viewing doesn't become excessive and you don't desensitize yourself to "vanilla" sex, I'd say you're good to go.

I would, though, tell you to not let your celebrity fantasies take you "off the market," so to speak.

I hope I was of some help to you, and I wish you my best.