Thinking that you are not BP and not wanting to take meds is just part of the way BP messes with our heads. I've been mostly stable with a few little dips for years now and I keep thinking that it was all nothing and I should go off meds particularly now I'm pregnant, but I listen to my pdoc when he reminds me how bad I got and I take the meds that make me stay better. It's not about taking alot of meds it's about taking the right meds if the side effects are bothering you then discuss it with your doc and see if you can try a diff med.