Miss Laura, I have many times went off of my meds only to come to the same conclusion that I do need them. I have convinced myself more than once that I am fine and dont need meds when in fact I was only fine because the meds were working so well for me that I thought I no longer needed them. I hate the meds bc of all the side effects with weight gain being the worst of them all to me. 60lbs so far in fact.... I do however bite the bullett and take them again because I find myself like you paranoid and I get to where I cycle very quickly between deep depression and dysphoric mania....
I hope y