I had a full on panic attack last night.. my husband wants to go away for the weekend to think about things (code to me for leaving) *sigh* It is sooo hard to be me somedays.

Shezbut - I am much the same.. I can have good weeks and the whamo! It's been brutal the past couple of weeks for me hence the reason I am at this point. And I get so mad at myself for being this way!! ARGH! Deep cleansing breaths only make me dizzy

Carmasia - I do that as well - the abandonment/contact thing.. It makes me feel worse about me when I do it but I can't help it! There was that book I saw "I hate you - don't leave me" that is totally me.. so frustrating!! I don't know how people put up with me somedays!

Psychobabe - ((((hug)))) I totally hear that and I am at times the same way.. At least now here I have found people who DO understand.. who get me.. who understand how I feel and what I think.. Its nice to be able to vent and let it out once in a while.