Hi there.

I do agree with Sannah in that without some more information, it is hard to assess your question. I hate to have to ask that, as I know it is not something comfortably shared, but do know we're here to help.

But on the whole, Open Eyes said it best. We are, even (perhaps especially) at a young age, sexual beings, with innate desires and curiosity. If you were abused at a young age (which please allow me to say I am very sorry ), that introduces you to sex in a way most children have not been. Thus, I think it rather normal for you to engage in behavior outside of the realm of "normal" sexual behavior.

I'm not a doctor, and thus not qualified to make any sort of diagnosis, I would wager nearly anything that your behavior isn't physically or genetically rooted, and is likely a psychological one resulting from your abuse. For that, I recommend a t.

I would also commend you on the purity ring. That is, I think, very noble of you.

Please know if I can do anything for you, my PM box is open. I wish you all my very best.