So, I always wanted to be a writer. Actually, I always wanted to be a novelist of sci-fi/fantasy. I did "complete" one rough draft of a novel that is over 150,000 words, far too long for it's genre and needing a complete overhaul. And then I have a lot of little chunks of work lying around. My favorite is a 12 chapter piece that I hope to complete someday. My problem is I get inspiration but I can't get ahold of my thoughts. My ideas blow around so fast in my brain that I can't make sense of them. It isn't writer's block, it's more like writer's tsunami, or maybe writer's hurricane.

Well, I'm feeling that old familiar urge. I'm getting the little sparks of ideas that blow past me and I just want to hold onto them long enough to make sense of out them. At the same time, I think it's a sign I'm going more manic again. I've been pretty depressed for a few weeks.

I am frustrated.