((((OE)))) we support you and are behind you. Your T supports you and is behind you. The stress alone from the initial incident, having to see your (nasty) neighbor and having to continue doing so much work on your own case is enough in itself to make anyone sick.

Forget what happened before that...the harassment, reminders of such a horrible tragedy, the emotional pain that this is causing you is very real and I do believe separate from anything else.

I honestly think you should go see an md and a pdoc for an evaluation. You are not crazy and there is nothing wrong with you other than this is literally creating an untenable situation for you.

And your lawyer seems to be making things worse.

I am so sorry this is happening. You are strong, intelligent and capable...but you cannot do this on your own. It is too much.

My heart goes out to you. I can totally understand how this situation is making things worse...you are correct. You cannot begin to heal until this closes.

Please take good care, keep writing. Please consider seeing a doctor...it breaks my heart to see you suffering like this. For no reason...it is absolutely not ok.

To hell with the people: family, friends, attorney. Your health and welfare come first.

R