BlackPup- I know what you mean, I have been 'bad' in the sense of how I can get being off meds but its always depression mainly I get. I want to have my mania as no-one see's that side to me. Its like I am a faker as people only see the depression. Not the fun side to me.

Moremi- ye I do normally cave in and tale my meds again. This time I am being stubborn. Standing ground.

Tinkerbell- you know me and ye I'm being stubborn and its only gonna get worse. As I said to you earlier I am gonna talk to my CPN on Wednesday. Never know he might agree with me that I have been stable enough to come off with his back up?

Morethingdwrong- thank you!!