I normally don't like venting to random people but its gotten so bad at this point and i have no one else I can talk to or trust and if I keep this in anymore I might explode!!! I'm sure most people have some sort of problem with their mother or father or whatever, but this is getting out of control. Since I was 8, and I'm now 19, my mother has made me the second mom in our house. My parents are split and she had to work. And since then its only gotten worse. Everything I do is wrong and selfish and I'm a piece of s**t one minute then she tries to be my best friend the next. She is constantly screaming about everything and anything and her favorite trick is to make you feel like a guilty piece of s**t!!! I know this doesn't sound like much but i couldn't even begin to do her harm justice. And because its all emotional and mental and not physical abuse the general thought is "suck it up it can't be that bad". I hate that people belittle this. it makes me feel even more on the outside. I've been seeing a dr. for anxiety, depression, and add since my mother caused me to have a huge mental breakdown at school. and now that I had to come closer to home because of money and am at this second at my mothers house for her birthday its all getting worse. I can't get better here and she won't let me get help because she thinks I'm full of ****. I know she has her own problems but I can't take this life anymore. I can't get away, I can't escape, I can't get help. I just don't know what else to do. I need just someone who believes me and understands and can help. but it keeps seeming like that is just to much to ask for. :/