I'm getting used to it. My habits have flipped. This time last year, you wouldn't find me home on any night of the week.. I'd be out with friends, whether it be just hanging out watchin TV, or out doing something with them. But for the past month, I've gone out only 2 times to hang out with my friends. (And just a handful of times over the past few months)
Don't get me wrong, I go to work, the gym, carry on with my normal life.. But when I come home at night, I don't talk to anyone at all. I've done a complete 180 on my social life. Whereas I'd normally be the life of the party, the one "rallying the troops" to go out and have fun, the one that approaches people I don't know to make acquaintances for the night... Now, I'm the one who you never hear from. The one who shuts himself in.
But I'm ok with that... I have my job and my workout routine to keep me busy and motivated. I'm losing the urge to socialize with people intimately. Is there something wrong with this? I know I suffer from depression and this is a result of my depression... but.. is it a bad thing?
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