How can I get over this? My T promised that I would be the one who chose the ending date, that I would be the one who chose to terminate. After 7 years, and after about four months of him being totally different than he used to be and suggesting I was the problem. (too needy, he couldn't be who I wanted him to be, etc.)

Did he terminate anyone else or was it just me?

He admitted transference/projection, which I appreciated, but I can't process that, it goes nowhere. My rage is turned inward, which I guess he's happy that I'm not projecting it his way. Now I have to get over being terminated, as if I don't have enough baggage, he added to it!

I'm trying to deal with this intense emotional baggage and he walks through the raindrops. My absence was what he wanted all along.

He totally decimated whatever self it was that he helped build. He demolished it. He didn't cause all of this as it was there before, but he added to it. I am so ****ing stupid for trusting him. I need to see another therapist, but why the hell would I want to pay someone to promise things, and then do the opposite.