(((happysomeday)))

Have you tried posting in the PTSD forum? While that forum isn't as active as this one is, those who visit that forum have more experience with issues like the what you're struggling with.

My SA occurred in early childhood as well as my teenage years, 20-30 years ago, so my point of view is different than those who suffered experiences more recently. I'm not sure if I could give you any real helpful advice, as I repressed my negative memories for many years.

Gentle hugs to you ~ be gentle with yourself. Any way that you can get some time off to help you work through this tough time?? Unfortunately, many of us have suffered various types of assault. All types are traumatic! You just might need a little time off to help you adjust to the memories.