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Old Aug 25, 2012, 01:52 AM
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I have difficulty with words related to what I describe as "some guys who took advantage of me." I only even discussed it in one session bc past thoughts/emotions came swelling up about it. Haven't touched on the topic since. After I explained everything with practically no eye contact and staring/picking at my thumbnail the entire time (and her offering me compassion, of course), my T then asked if I thought I was r***d. I hesitated and said I had trouble with that word. When she asked why, i explained that it's not how I want to describe something that's happened to me. She replied that I could call it a candlelit dinner, but that it doesn't change what happened to me. I immediately grinned and laughed a bit. You gotta love a T who can make you smile or laugh even in the middle of the most difficult and emotional session ever. She didn't press me on it though. I remember that one of the next times I met with my dietitian (who worked in the same office & had actually referred me to the T), she actually said the words "date r***" to refer to what happened. i was kinda shocked at first, but then I came around to the idea that it really did happen and it wasn't my fault, etc. I wanted to bring up the topic another time with T and actually considered saying the word, but we were preparing for termination and me moving, so I didn't want to poke at the ant hill too much, ya know?
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