I'd like to be more outgoing toward other people, but I just can't. If I don't know someone really well, I'm not able to carry a conversation with them without awkward silent moments. It depresses me a lot that I can't express how I feel toward certain people or form friendships with them.

Also, there are relatives that I'd like to talk to more than I currently do, but my social anxiety gets in the way of that.

I'm not sure what to do, and it greatly depresses me. It has been doing that to me for a long while.