I think I'd prefer almost any diagnosis to that of BPD, but it is what it is. I hope you can get your dx and treatment straightened out and get the help you need. I live in the US and since I can't hold down a job (yay me ) I am on disability: SSI and Medicaid. Medicaid will only pay for me to go to the local mental health center and no one there is trained in DBT and I can't afford it on my own, so I am in the rather ridiculous position of having BPD, being on disability for *ahem* "emotional problems", and being denied access to the one treatment most likely to help me. Yep, the American system of health care is nothing if not totally illogical!

On the bright side...if I finally do go utterly and totally bonkers, the US health system will have no one but themselves to blame.