Hi. I'm fairly new to this site. I have PTSD, Bi-Polar, Fibromyalgia and some other stuff that doesn't effect my daily living. I've recently been thinking about relationships and I finally feel ready for one. Unfortunately, my self esteem doesn't seem up to the task. I'm very overweight and the Fibromyalgia makes it very difficult to be physically active. So, while I'm thinking about men, my head says, you're too fat, you can't do many things physically, and the kicker, you're defective because of all that's happened to you.
I used to be very well built and beautiful. I didn't have any trouble finding a man. Now that I'm heavy, it's a completely different story. It hurts to be treated so differently and it makes me angry. It also feeds on the self talk I have going on. Can anyone relate?