I dont know if I'll ever stop being scared of 'him'.

What makes it worse, is that he is ALREADY dead, but I find that he still has so much power over me!

Who knows what power dead people have to be able to torment the living?
What about ghosts that you see in movies that go about haunting people?
Does death really mean the end?

I was brought up in a very religious family, and although I do not have these relgious beliefs anymore, I am still haunted by stories of the existence of the afterlife and eternity.

I wish death DID mean the end and I didnt have to worry anymore.

But I can still feel his hands on me ..... and strange things happening to my body. I know rationally that these are just body memories and flashbacks, but I can't help but imagine that he's still around and abusing me even from the grave.

I'm sorry .... its a difficult day for me today, and I dont feel at ALL strong or brave.