AT the age of 43, I thought very much the same thing. I had lost my career as a firmware design engineer in the aerospace industry. I had a bad marriage for over 20 years that my career was my escape from & there was no way out of the marriage at that point because all I had was disability & we owned a house that wasn't worth what we paid for, so we couldn't even sell it, & take the money & move on. My future looked more bleak than I had ever imagined it could......so obviously, I felt there was nothing to life for & acted on that more times than I can even remember along with allowing the anorexia to try to win it's war against me.

What I didn't know was what the future really had in store for me. I didn't know the trauma I was going to go through either, but I didn't see the ability to take my inheritance I leave where I was....finally get away from the marriage even though I couldn't get the divorce because of financial issues.....at least I could get out of having to live in the same house & the anger that kept building up inside of me that was destroying me. Moved 2100 miles away to a place where I didn't know anyone & started my life over. I now have real friends who care (never believed that could happen either because all my life it hadn't been that way)....I have a wonderful church & people there who have accepted me as family. I have a wonderful psychologist I never dreamed they could be like & the DBT group has aided to knowing better how to handle stressful & distressing situations. I have grown more between the age of 53 & 59 than I had all my previous years.

We never know what the future holds or how it's going to turn out......giving up before the good things happen would have been such a waste of my life knowing now how happy I can really be & that I am not that depressed person that existed before I truly found my freedom. I think the same is true for everyone, just in their own different ways.....& the same is true for you.....you are young & your future holds more than you can ever imagine at your age....don't give up on it now, even if the next few years don't look good, you can't see beyond the bend to know that good there is to come.