Hi setso, im sorry to hear you're feeling this way.

Not to invalidate you but i don't think anyone is ever really ready to die - i don't think it matters how old we get we're never going to feel like we've had enough time or truly understand what we've been through. 23 is very young - some would say you're not even old enough to understand how bad life actually gets. We all feel sometimes as though our life is on hold - i would challenge you to try and change this, what would make you feel happier and more fulfilled? can you identify whats really stopping you achieving such goals and put a plan in place to try and overcome these obstacles? humans are problem solvers, we strive on pushing our way through lifes struggles. Think of all the lives you've changed whilst you've been alive - if you weren't here you'd miss out on so many other oppertunities. I hope you find peace and contentment - life is hard but nothing thats worth having comes easy.