I know it's not good for me to isolate myself but I really don't feel like being around anyone. I just got back from a two-hour concert.. I'm exhausted from taking Xanax every night to sleep (and still getting very little sleep) and I feel depressed, anxious and just blah.. I don't want to meet up with a bunch of people at a bar.

I don't want people to think my problems are so bad that I am becoming a shut-in but I really don't have it in me to go out.

I know I'm too young to feel this way and I wish I could be normal and enjoy my life, and that life is passing me by, but tonight I just can't do it.

I don't know if I am ever going to come out of this.. probably not.. I hope I die young.. life has just become to difficult, meaningless and pointless. (I'm not suicidal, I just feel hopeless and like crap).