I've tried typing this 4 times now--i keep getting booted out. Anyway, I'm at work which makes my situation even worse. I try to hide it but my coworker asked what was wrong and I totally broke down, telling him everything. He ended up calling a crisis line and they talked to me for 30 minutes. We made a plan that they will call me back in 90 minutes and I had to promise I wouldn't hurt myself. Iot's just so hard. I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I have a constant stomach ache. My eyes have cried a million tears. I just don't have the strength anymore. I have no one to go home to in the morning and that scares me. I am a lost cause I do believe.