I feel like ej above. I know that the "crazy, irrational, hopeless, irritable" person I can become is not me and is surely not a choice. It's not a personality flaw. My stubborn streak is a personality flaw. Why that and not the others? I can control it. I'm aware of it because my brain is working properly. I can choose to release my stubborn opinion at any point. Does that make sense?

I resent being told (not that you did but people have) to get over it. Or just "don't be that way". I'd love to but I simply find I can't help it. It took many years for my husband to admit that I was more me on meds than I was when not on meds. And he was very anti drug.