Breathe! Think about the good things. Now, is there a way u can talk to psychiatrist or a psychologist? If u are having such crippling anxiety, it could be that u hav an anxiety disorder, which can be easily treated with medication and/or therapy. If you are not in a position to see a therapist, try taking a natural anxiety reliever such as pharma Gabba. It is a natural suplement that u can buy at any vitamin/supplement store. Good luck! I hope things get less stressful!