Right now I want to throw away all my earrings because I lost an earring of a pair that I really love.

I mean really! I can't find it anywhere. On the kitchen floor; just slid out of my earlobe, bounced on the floor and DISAPPEARED into nowhere! NOWHERE! I looked and looked and we dn' even have a large kitchen.

I feel...so...stupid!!!!!!

How could I have done that?!

My bpd says this is what happens when I love something; I lose it. I don't deserve it.

So I dodn't deserve my earrings.

Another bpd voice says they're too sl***y for me anyway.

So far, my friend here has kept me from acting on these feelings.

B.