I too did not know how to respond, excep that I felt for you. You asked for advice and I had none, really. I have not done the exact same things like swallow pills, but I do relate to wanting to commit su***e, to self-harm, and having a su***dal history.

I used to be in hospital over and over again because I could not cope with my emotional ups and downs, esp the painful ones.

We are struggling as well, everyone on this board. I wish I had answers and I get afraid that if I do respond I don't say the right thing.

so if I don't respond, it's because I don't know what to say or how it will come out or be taken.

I wanted to put a "thanks" on your post or a hug, but I didn't know if that was what you wanted. I did not have advice.

The way I give support is just relating to issues and sharing my own solutions if I have them. I am not good at advice giving.

warm PC support,

Billi