My friend left a few minutes ago. She brought a pizza of which I struggled to have a few bites of. She also brought me a beautiful boquet of flowers. Mostly she just sat on the edge of my bed and listened to me cry. Sometimes there was just silence. But she was a comfort that I need oh so desperately. She offered to stay the night but I know she has to be to work early and it's a long drive from my place. I'm going to call my therapist as soon as her office opens in the morning. As for right now--I thank you all for being here for me. Even though we're strangers we have a common bond of sorts. I have the crisis line to call and my friend is calling later to check on me. I absolutely HATE feeling this way. Trapped, confused and hopeless. I don't care about things I would usually care about and I feel like I can't even lift my head off the pillow--it's too much effort. So that's my update for now. Again, thank you all for caring.