PD, I can understand this, sure. Sorry I don't have any real suggestions for you. I think about this same kind of stuff a lot. But so far I haven't moved past the thinking stage and into the doing.

I think take it slow and steady and make sure you work out all the details. Try not to pressure yourself too much. And also try to keep that faith in yourself that you can achieve what you desire. That is exactly where I get stuck.

I worried about loosing my creativity to meds too. And I did, well I didn't loose it, but I did loose the desire. However I think we are all different in that area, and that might not be your experience. I have read about many people who claim that the meds helped them into being able to be more productive with their creativity, and hopefully that would work out for you as well.