Tomorrow after 20 years of waiting and not knowing, a 2hr consultation and 6hrs or neuropsychological testing I will get some sort of diagnosis or at least some answers. I don't know really what I could or couldn't really have they only gave me 1 actual personality assesment after talking with my parents and I whom have different opinions and views about my mental state (neither of their faults0 as they're divorced and my dad is a exectutive chef has been for as long as I can remember so he works anywhere fron 4 to 20hr days, and my mom is a stay at home mom with my stepdad and currently i live with and take care of my grandparents. As there is no room at my mom's house and it is somewhat of a calmer environment with my grandparents. So basically they got 3 conflicting view points on me, and I am truely nervous about tomorrow and a bit scared as to what the results could be. Especially if it is BPD or another personality disorder no offense to anyone n this thread as you all have been extremely supportive with my posts. But worried about how others would treat me especially within the MH feild being in the US and on government insurance. But i don't or won't know until tomorrow

And all I can say to anyone is keep trying to get help, to find the answers and find someone willing to give you the un-biased support you all need