Creativelight, as someone who sufferers from PTSD I am terrified of intimacy. I once told my T that I would like to experience a climax before I die just so I could under stand what all the shouting was about. However when I was pregnant I felt great and the sexiest I ever felt. Don't ask me to explain that one, but still no climaxes.
Since you H is experiencing those though porn that doesn't quite seem to be the on the same level fear as I am. Maybe it's a gender thing? I don't know what to say. When I was married I was married and my ex never knew I was faking it, but I was ever so happy that part of is was over when we separated. I'm kind of naive on this issue, but feel that if your H knows that this is something that affects the marriage he should get help for it. As a vet he can get help for PTSD. I feel like I'm making this worse.
I've never seen this come up before on our PTSD forum. I kinda assumed everyone with PTSD had fears of intimacy and getting close to people. I know you can not force him to treatment if he doesn't want it. What about you, can you get a T(therapist is PC speak) I am a straight female but I think all pregnant females look their very best during those times. You don't need a pistil but a camera to record just how beautiful you are at this time in your life. Is your Pdoc monitoring you and keeping an eye on any meds you are taking? My daughter is also bipolar and has gone off all her meds for the pregnancy so her Dr's all of them are keeping a close eye on her.
I wish you the very best and if there is anything I can say to help you understand my own fears of intimacy I'll be glad to help with that. Take care of yourself and your baby   I'm overly tired so I hope I didn't put my foot in my mouth.
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