My friend just called to check up on me. I know I told her to leave, but I wish to God she was right here by me. I know I have the crisis line and I can call her and of course come on here--but nothing can replace human touch in times of desparation. I took a sleeping pill so hopefully I'll be able to sleep a bit tonight. Everyone who posted again thank you. You are helping me more than you know. I found tis website by accident last week and it (you all) may just be saving my life.