Your psychiatrist is right, you are crying about the past, I think that is what it is anyways. I think alot of us have, I have that is for sure , but you cannot live in the past anymore, no one can, live in the now, don't live in shame and guilt, live with only regret, regret you can live with and move on. Yes you did go through some hard times, and i'm sorry you are in alot of pain, keep posting when you need too, take care of yourself, and try and think postive even though at times it is so hard to do.

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>