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Old Aug 27, 2012, 05:40 AM
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Originally Posted by happysomeday View Post
Callsta+12,

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time as well. Sleeping is so hard for me. Even with trazadone here I am at 130am still wide awake. Then I take adderall during the day to help me stay alert. As I've been lying here tonight crying, thinking, I decided I need to talk to my MD tomorrow too and maybe get my Effexor dosage upped. I just can't do this on my own. It's a miserable existance as you all probably know with your own life issues. I guess what I need to know is that one day I'll feel different. That one day I'll look back and realize that I survived. Right now that seems like a pipe dream. Second to second is all I can do. I'm a good person, I help the less fortunate, I care about people's feelings. Not that I'm Super Woman or anything but I deserve to be happy. I deserve and want a life. Why is it SO darn hard to simply exist? I know I probably sound redundant in a lot of my posts but I'm typing my feelings as they pop in my head. This I know for sure: Depression SUCKS!

You do not sound redundant, at all. I do the same thing when I'm in a horrific place---I just can't stop thinking about how bad I'm feeling, why is it that everytime I try to improve something I hit a wall?

Also, do you think if you invited your friend back over she'd stay with you some more?
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